I think of all the things I "Ustacould"...(used to be able to, for those of you more sophisticated than myself).
For example:
I ustacould do this
Hmmmm...this could count for two. I ustacould wear a bikini and my husband could carry me around like this. I think I need to let the bikini idea go though...don't think I am ever getting into one of those again:) Did I mention that I have three kids and a couple of C-sections?...yea, ain't gonna happen.
I also ustacould do this
We might have used a wall for balance, but we could still manage it. Now we are relegated to doing something like this:
Don't worry, I have no need to do this...I am a realist.
(Disclaimer:None of these people are me or my husband...I did not take any of these pictures. If you are upset that I used your picture then tell me and I shall remove it. I will not pay for this chicks chiropractor bill.)
I ustathink that I was fat in high school. I don't know what was wrong with that girl...vision problems? I had a very unhealthy body image. My body image is much better now. I know my problem areas and am willing to work on them, but am not freaking out over it. Our family is complete, so I no longer have pregnancies, etc. to deal with...it is time for me to do this for me, for my health, and so those things that I ustacould do can be done again.
My husband and I are the same height and he is one of those people that can eat whatever he wants and doesn't gain a pound. He is a little softer around the middle than he ustabe, but still quite hot. I outweigh him by 30 pounds...just happens to be (according to the charts) how much weight I need to lose to be in the top of my healthy weight range. He can pick me up, but there better be a bed to throw me on somewhere nearby...lol. I would like to be swept off my feet.
I have this weird fear that one day I am going to be on the news where they show overweight people walking around without showing their heads...FREAKS ME OUT. I am not there yet...I have been blessed that my weight has evenly distributed. But I could head that direction if I continue with the poor habits. I could also end up with diabetes as it runs in my family. I have high cholesterol, reflux and my knees aren't what they ustabe. I think everyone in my immediate family is overweight to some extent. I came from the finish everything on your plate because there are starving people in Africa age. "We are the world...." yadayada (Before you give me a hard time...I am not making fun of starving people in Africa...I just don't see how cleaning my plate will help them...please do not tell your children this...I feel horribly guilty if I leave food on my plate).
I will never be a size 2...I'm cool with that. In fact, apparently I am the average size for women in America. It's the first time in my life that I would like to be below average:)
So far I am focusing on actually making it to the gym at least 3 times per week, drinking more water(including drinking water when I get hungry at snack time...did you know that you probably aren't hungry, but dehydrated?), limiting soda to one a day (don't want to go cold turkey on that quite yet), and watching my portion sizes. I actually lost 2 pounds already...don't get too excited...it will slow down. I realize this isn't much of a list...but starting out slowly will help me to stick to the changes. Each week I will try to add a goal...next week I will be focused on breakfast...actually eating it would be good:)
I have always wanted to surprise my husband with boudoir pictures...not naked...settle down you dirty minded people...just sexy. Think like this:
They are ridiculously expensive. I have decided if I lose the 30 pounds that I need to, then I will surprise him with pics. I haven't figured out what my little rewards will be along the way. I am open to suggestions. Obviously chocolate should probably be out for rewards. Gosh darn it.
I realize that I am not going to get my 20 year old body back, but I don't want to spend life adding to my "ustacould" list.
I hear ya. I've got a bit to go myself. And I thought I was fat while I was *in the military*... I pretty much hate myself at every point in my life, then look back and ask "WTF was I thinking?"
ReplyDeletePictures are always the worst! Oh well, I have decided to be happy with what I have and work on my problem areas...I so still wonder what in the world I was thinking:)
DeleteYou have set some very reasonable goals for yourself, Bea - ones that are focusing on health and well being. I applaud your initiative and I am right there with you. I have lost ten pounds since beginning my diet and I have ten to go, but I am feeling more energetic.
ReplyDeleteI will be cheering for you, Bea! You can do it!
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lillie
Thanks! You too Lillie!
DeleteYour goal is very realistic. We always want it to come off all at once but it went on one pound at a time and it's the best way to come off. I've been on a treadmill with weight my whole life and I think some of it is genetic and the rest is I just like to eat and there are times when I have no control.
ReplyDeleteI wish you lots of luck with your plan.
Actually a little dark chocolate once in a while is a healthy thing. That could be one of your rewards as long as you didn't over indulge.
How about a massage, facial, mani/pedi all girly treats.
I do love food:) Love your reward ideas...I think mani/pedi will be my first one:) Sounds like a good 10 pound reward to me.
DeleteSounds like a good goal. I think I set a goal about six months ago to lose 15 lbs, I haven't quite made it I seem to fluctuate between having lost 10-15, but without a goal you have nothing to work towards.
ReplyDeleteI hope it goes well for you.
Thanks Ponyboy! Sending well wishes in your goals too!
DeleteGood for you Bea! I am working on this too and it is so much more difficult than when we were younger. Still, it can be done, one stinking pound at a time. I love your end goal and your pictures will be amazing.
ReplyDeleteThanks Susie...amazing what they can airbrush:), but I want to be at my best:) Good luck!
DeleteLate to the party again, dang it! I did a post on RedPillWifey Feb 12, 2013 about body image. I'll c&p it here in case this site won't allow link posting. Before I do, I would encourage ALL women to get the glamour shot made, even if you miss your goal by a few pounds. They will hide the problem areas. Let's be realistic about this and no hurt feelings allowed: It is very unlikely that all you will ever look better now than you will later, unless you are living the Susan Powter experience. Today, this age, is probably better than later. You didn't get glamour shots at 18, or 22, or 26 or, get the point. Today may be as good as it will be. Remeber all the pictures you didn't let be taken of you on vacation in your swimsuit in those bygone days because you were "too fat"? Now its "TOO LATE". Give yourselves a break and let the photoshop and lighting wizards help out with the character lines of married life and mnotherhood. As to nudity in the photos, give that some thought too. Doesn't have to be total, but gravity won't be kind to the girls and the rear so better now. Why not do it when you are at your best for the moment you are in? I have more creases and and less collagen than five years ago. Ain't getting better. DO IT NOW! Don't let your neck to ankles coverage wedding photos be the best you can offer as you sit side by side in the rockers trying to share how good you usta look. Now I will soften the blow with the body image comment:
ReplyDeleteBody image, The spawn of Satan for sure. I recently lost a comment I wrote about thei due to miskeying. I’ll try again. Men’s eyes are not mirrors. They are not cameras. A mirror reflects reality, warts and all. A camera does much the same, but we have some control over just how much reality it captures and the degree of detail in that reality.
Men’s eyes are an artist’s canvas. Unlike a photo which captures reality, an artist creates his own reality on canvas. What he sees is filtered through his perception as he paints. He can choose not to see the “flaws” and paint only what he chooses to see. This is how lovers look at one another. We know your imperfect areas, but we choose not to see them. They are not a concious part of our passionate experience. We paint our own reality as our love for you filters it. If you really let yourself go, is it more difficult to “not” see it? Of course, no point in sounding naive. The problem is the great majority of women do not have problems to the extreme they are willing to own. The relationship they are in will never rise above the lowest level of their body image issue. It’s easy to say change it if you can or accept it if you can’t and we all know the absolute truth behind that. Most can’t or won’t is where the problem lies, and in failing to do either, they only compound their feelings of inadequacy. I don’t know what to tell you to defeat that, but I can tell you your husbands see less than you do.
Here we are just two years later and you have done the photos. I am so proud of you girl. Bea, you are a special person and Levi is a blessed man.
ReplyDeleteFrankly Speaking, Dan