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Wednesday, December 5, 2012

The Notebook

No, not this:
But wasn't that an awesome movie!

This would be the notebook I am describing (the exact one I picked up from Target when I had my revelation):


So, I listened to all of your wonderful advice and here is what I came up with...I kind of combined the idea of nightly state of the unions that Lillie does, and the letters that Willie does, and Average Married Dad's weekly talk sessions and came up with what will work for Levi and I.  Basically what I am saying is that it is not really my idea and I wanted to thank these awesome peeps for their inspiration...just so we are clear.

Here is what I wrote in the notebook:

Hey babe,
I had this idea to start this notebook.  I feel like we are having difficulty communicating with each other.  I know I have difficulty saying things sometimes and I think we both get defensive.  We both seem to need time to process what the other is saying before we answer or we tend to hurt the others feelings.  I feel like if we don't talk about things then the resentment builds and I feel disconnected.  I really want to be a better wife and think that maybe until we get better at communicating in the moment that we could use this notebook.  If you don't feel comfortable with this for yourself, I understand, but I am still going to use this sometimes to share things that might be difficult to do in person.  I don't know if we just want to use it when needed or have a minimum number of days like...at least once a week.  Let me know what you think.
I wanted to start by saying how awesome the sex has been lately....(ok so, I go into some detail here and ask some personal questions about what he would like to see more of etc...explain my embarassment and wanting to hide under the covers to talk about this so it is easier to write out etc.)

I started with sex, because hey...I know my man and how to get his attention.  When I started writing, I realized that I could go on for pages and pages and pages...but decided to keep it under two.  My dear Levi has a short attention span for this sort of thing. 

I really hope he likes this idea and will respond in the notebook.  I am going to put it on his nightstand and just tell him to read it whenever he gets a chance (and then probably hide under said covers).  Thank you all so much for your support, your comments, etc.  Hope this works:)

Think this is not going to work?  Just let me live in my happy little bubble right now:)  I am feeling better:)

8 comments:

  1. Hope he reads it and you get to put your notebook to good use.

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  2. it sounds like a brilliant plan. hope he responds positively to it.

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  3. I love your plan, Bea. I could use something like this for confessions...lol (kidding) but I think any form of communication that makes us feel like we can open up is good.
    hugs sweetie
    lillie

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  4. I for one think it is an absolutely wonderful tool..I hope the tool gets used by both parties!

    I think your bubble is so cute!

    Best of Luck

    Willie

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  5. I love this idea! I have notebooks for our two younger kids. Our daughter uses it most to discuss when something's bothering her or on her mind. She gives it to me or leaves it on my side of the bed when I get home from work and I think it really helps us all communicate better. Sounds like you're putting in the "extra effort" to connect...can't wait to hear how it works for you guys:-)

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  6. Sometimes I'm surprised by what works...and it is often what I wouldn't first think of but this sounds like a very good plan and gives Levi some space to think and engage as he processes.

    I hear you on hiding under the covers. Ugh!

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  7. Well, he has read it, but no response yet...pray for patience:)
    Jasmine, that is an awesome idea about having one for the kids...especially when they get to be teenagers.
    Will give you an update as soon as something happens:)
    Bea

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  8. Great idea! I'm hoping it works out. Our daughter does this for school a assigned by her teacher, but we love it too. She writes something to me or my wife and we respond. Allows both parties to be honest without the pressure and quick wit sometimes needed to verbally get through communication issues.

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