Ok, before I get to much into this week's visual...I have to say that this is in no way related to Susie's adorable post where all the wives were smartcars or bugs and the men drove around hummers...cute story...you should read it:) Now that I have my disclaimer out of the way...
I am the steamroller...Levi is the smartcar. Before you all freak out and think that I am contemplating this...the caption for the above picture would probably read something like this:
"Oooops...my bad...did I do that?"
Apparently when I am stressed...which these days is often...I go into steamroller mode. Levi is largely ignored and I do what needs to be done. If you get in my way...well...you can see the picture. It kind of speaks for itself. So, since I have started this process, I have been trying to minimize my steamroller self a bit...my aim is this:
I am the steamroller...Levi is the smartcar. Before you all freak out and think that I am contemplating this...the caption for the above picture would probably read something like this:
"Oooops...my bad...did I do that?"
Apparently when I am stressed...which these days is often...I go into steamroller mode. Levi is largely ignored and I do what needs to be done. If you get in my way...well...you can see the picture. It kind of speaks for itself. So, since I have started this process, I have been trying to minimize my steamroller self a bit...my aim is this:
He doesn't look like he could hurt much...
It would really help my cause though if Levi were less like this:
And a little more like this:
If my steamroller self comes up against this...it's gonna be hard to run over. Plus it has the added benefit of being able to shovel through my crap to understand what I am trying to say.
Oh man, I can relate to this. When I used to get stressed I would go into autopilot mode and just demolish anything in my path.....good times ;)
ReplyDeleteLife is just so busy with little ones and all of the other responsibilities we have to deal with day in and day out.
The good thing is you are realizing what you are doing...and hopefully that leads you to the answer as to how to fix it!
Hang in there.....
~Lucy
Thanks Lucy...I am trying to get better, but when I am overwhelmed I just don't see...you know?
DeleteOh Bea - LOL
ReplyDeleteIf any time during the calendar year brings about steamroller mode, this is it.....
You are doing great, sweetie - hang in there.
hugs
lillie
Usually, I am better at juggling all this stuff, but am floundering a bit this year:) Thanks for the encouragement.
DeleteBea
Still there...at least this week..
ReplyDeleteGood thing to note, ttwd, at least in my very limited experience allows us to become Transformers- where we can change to a 'good' guy.
Love
Willie
More than meets the eye:)
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Bea
Oh my goodness - I SO get this one!! Thanks for sharing - it actually makes me sit back and think about how I have been acting towards My Man lately, and I have definitely been running roughshod over his emotions and needs and desires... I WANT to think of him as being impenetrable, so when I do run over him he isn't phased. But, we need to remember that our guys are humans to and they can't just take our abuse forever. :-p :)
ReplyDeleteIt is hard to remind myself without some sort of cue from him...we'll get there:) You will too:)
DeleteLOL Bea - Great visuals. Hang in there - life will slow down and stress will ease off. Be careful, I'll bet Levi can transform from that cute little car to the steam shovel in a new york minute. One of these days, he is going to do just that and when he does, I'm going to refer you back to this post. ;)
ReplyDeleteBlessings,
Cat
Thanks Cat:) I know I can count on you. LOL! JK...Life is ridiculously fast right now...and it is really hard to remember to be "surrendered".
DeleteI do think we could make this into a chapter 2 of the story and bring a resolve in chapter 3. :)
ReplyDeleteBut seriously, I think it's really hard to stop doing this--steamrolling our guys. We have been in charge for so long. I'm not kidding Bea--M will literally stand in front of me while I do this now and he has to physically get in my way and stop me before I realize what I'm doing. You would think that a couple of years into ttwd, I'd be more aware but it is so second nature. He has told me that it is still hard to decide when to be that brick wall and when to let me carry on b/c it's what I need to do.
Here's to Levi slowly working up the gumption to scoop you up and keep you there till your little steamrollers stop turning.
Oh bless you Susie! I can totally visualize him picking me up with my "rollers" (or feet or mind wheels) still turning...great visual:) I really do want Levi to be a brick wall for me...we are getting there...I think especially during this time that it is what I need:)
DeleteI loved that little story you wrote.
Bea
Nice analogies!
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