First, I want to apologize for disappearing...I hope I did not worry any of you and appreciate the emails that I have received checking in with me. I promise you I would not leave without saying goodbye...I have this weird quirk about saying goodbye and get really irritated when people leave places without saying goodbye, so I can tell you for certain that I would never do it:) If I ever decide to stop blogging...you all will know. I have been insanely busy and am still adjusting to working part time on top of my usual kid/wife busyness. Things have slowed a bit for me just in time to get busy for the holidays. I have so many things to tell you all and hope to catch you all up soon, but first...
I am currently the best wife ever...(at least in my house). I have been working on a major surprise for Levi's 40th birthday since August. I racked my brain for ideas on what I should do for his gift and was stumped for a good long while. But there was something that I had been thinking about doing for a long time...I mentioned it here two years ago!! (Man, it took me a while to work up the guts to do this!) Then I read about it here and thought it would be the perfect 40 year gift for my VERY visual husband. Boudoir Photography.
But...
but...
Oh yes, I had all those buts too...I can hear you, you know.
"I could never do that because..."
I have no boobs,
I am too fat,
too old,
too skinny,
too insert negative descriptor here.
I can tell you that I am absolutely, by no stretch of the imagination perfect. I wear a size 12, my boobs are not as...high as they used to be, I have cellulite, stretch marks, and wrinkles. I have some gray hairs creeping into my red (cough, cough, I mean, "natural highlights"). I have no tan. I have a 3 kid pooch and a c-section scar. I have no booty. I could go on, but the important thing is...
MY. HUSBAND. THINKS. I. AM. HOT.
And isn't that really all that matters....well, ...
It certainly would help if I thought it too. But guess what, after this experience I can see a bit what he sees. My photographer has her own professional hair/makeup artist that comes to the photo shoot. And after my little "makeover", I felt beautiful...I felt like a woman again...not "just a mommy". I chose lingerie that would cover what I wanted covered and show off my assets.
The photo shoot took place in a hotel room that I chose (and got free using card points...sweet!). So after it was over and I was all made up with awesome hair, amazing wrinkle covering makeup and a hotel room for the night...what is a wife to do? Date night of course. But a very special date night. When Levi and I had finally had our little discussion about sex (here), he had mentioned how fun it would be to pretend to be strangers and hook up.
So....I wore something he had never seen, wore perfume he had never smelled, completely surprised him coincidentally on a night after a really crappy week at work, and sent him a text telling him to meet me at the hotel bar. He arrived first and I went and sat on the opposite side of the bar. It took him a full two minutes to notice me and his eyes got huge (remember I had my makeup and hair done)...I wish I had photographed that moment, but it will forever be in my memory. I came up with an alter ego and when he came over to me, I introduced myself and he smiled so big and came up with his own alter ego on the spot. His was much better and he didn't even have time to think of one like I did, or maybe he has had this alter ego saved up? I couldn't stop laughing...it was the most fun night we had had in a very long while. We went out to dinner and I invited him back to my hotel room...wink, wink.
I didn't let him know the big secret though. I was saving what my true purpose had been that day to myself. I ordered a book of my photos for his birthday. Then he really knew the reason that I had gotten my hair, makeup, and hotel room:) I also had a party for him with our friends and family this weekend. That wasn't a surprise, but it was a blast.
And that is why I am currently the best wife ever. He hasn't stopped saying it all weekend. He was shocked by the book and couldn't stop flipping through it over and over and laughed when he realized what I had been able to keep a secret for so long.
I highly recommend doing this at least once. It was an awesome surprise and changed the way I see myself. Sure, I still have areas that I would like to work on and days I lack confidence, but Levi thinks I am sexy and this experience made me see it in a way I never have. And don't think that I just waltzed in and disrobed with nary a care in the world. I was terrified, and required some wine to relax. The female photographer was great at helping me to feel comfortable and some of the pics were quite racier than I thought I could manage...and Levi loves them so it was well worth the nerves!!
I thought I would give you a little peek...
I know, such a tease, but the rest of this picture and the rest of the photos are for Levi's eyes only:) I wish I could show you how well they came out even with my imperfections, but you will just have to take my word for it:)
(This one is really for Wilma (a fellow blogger who knows me), since she says my blog photo does not show my true hair color:) There you go Wilma:))

Beautiful. Levi is a very lucky man. :-)
ReplyDeleteThanks Jackie!!
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ReplyDeletewell now this one looks to dark! bwhahaaa....Maybe you face book is wrong. ALL 5000 pictures there! As long as Levi is happy, who am I to complain ;)
The party looked fun!
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willie
LOL!! Picky, picky...you are probably right, but I was taking a pic of a book with my phone. geez...gonna have to update my pic now:) The party was so much fun! Nice to have a kid free night amongst adults...I had forgotten how awesome it is:)
Deletegrrr...*toO dark
ReplyDeleteWOW...you deserve that title.....you certainly made this a birthday to remember....
ReplyDeleteHow very nice...
hugs abby
Thank you abby! I am going to enjoy the title while it lasts:)
DeleteWow! Just WOW! Bea, I am so happy for you and proud of you girl. I am very happy for Levi as well. And you went all out with the hotel fantasy too. Levi must have been so overwhelmed. I'll bet his jaw just hit the floor at the bar. His look will always be in your memory along with his face from your wedding. He looked at you with deep adoration both times. It's that "God, I'm one lucky guy," look. I don't mind admitting I am tearing up a little reading your post. Yeah. I do that with chick flicks too. I'm a bit of a sentimental romantic but I usually hide it well.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the peek. Love the color and style on the hair. I like how the photographer made sure to use your wedding band hand for that photo and probably others. That sends a subtle, almost subconscious signal to Levi's visual side that you are his and proud of it and openly show it. I am glad to hear you found the courage and acceptance of your sensual side to go further than you expected for some "quite racier" pictures. You not only gave Levi a very memorable gift, but found something of yourself in the process. That sexy babe who first caught his eye is still there. You still have IT. Levi has always KNOWN that. Now you KNOW it too. That alone makes those photos worth the price paid and more. They are indeed...PRICELESS.
Geez...now I am tearing up! My ring is definitely in a lot of the photos...and yep, I even managed a sexy panty butt shot:) He gives me little nudges every now and again wondering when he might see my alter ego again:) and occasionally I put on the perfume that I wore...surprisingly he notices!
DeleteWell, yeah. Think about using the perfume as a signal and only use it for that reason. You might put it on before he kisses you goodbye in the morning on those "special" days so he has all day to anticipate coming home to the "Best Wife Ever." How neat was it hearing that in the moment?
DeleteHow very awesome for both of you Bea! Happy belated birthday to Levi. Thanks for checking in...hope you post again soon. ;)
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Cat
Thanks Cat, I will tell him:)
DeleteSuch a great post. Levi's right, you are the best wife ever.
ReplyDeleteThanks!! I will endeavor to enjoy it while it lasts:)
DeleteWow Bea, what a wonderful gift, and Levi is right :) Glad you both had such a great time. The photo is beautiful :)
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Roz
so wonderful...what a fabulous gift that I am sure he will appreciate time and time again! :-) Hugs
ReplyDeleteThanks Terps...I hope so. I wanted to make his 40th memorable:)
DeleteWhat a lucky guy! Way to think outside the box, I smiled reading about how his jaw hit the floor after realizing it was you at the bar.
ReplyDeleteI won't forget that look for the rest of my life...nice to know sometimes I've still got it:) It was sooooo fun!
DeleteWhat a wonderful gift! :) I have only heard of these kinds of shoots a few months ago. I have no idea who does them in my area. I have tried to figure out how I can take some myself. Gonna have to think it through.
ReplyDeleteI hope you do...it really was an amazing experience...completely out of my comfort zone, but worth it!! Levi loved them and I had the added benefit of a major confidence boost:) I googled for boudoir photographers in my area, made sure they were all female staff (was important for me but I suppose not for everyone), checked reviews, and looked at the pictures A LOT! There were some that were too touched up and people looked like they were glowing...I really liked the girl I chose...she said she only touches what is distracting to the picture. She would soften tan lines so they didn't stand out so much, hid a couple of scars, and smoothed some "hail damage";). I hope you have the experience that I did and that your husband loves them as much as mine has!!
DeleteBea
Thanks so much for the encouragement! I am def interested in doing something like this. I live in a small area, but maybe someone around here does that sort of thing. I'm going to have to save up some cash. :)
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