Land Sickness

 

Have you ever been on a cruise?  If not, go...no seriously...so much fun.  Anyway, if you haven't been on a cruise or any kind of boat for a long period of time you will have no idea what I am talking about, but bear with me.  If you have been on a cruise, you will know exactly what I am talking about.  When you get on the boat you have a day or so of getting your sea legs so to speak.  Even with the stabilizers the boat still sways a bit on the water.  Finally, you get used to it and you may not even notice........until.......you get off the boat.  Levi and I have been on a couple of cruises and typically for a week or so after we are home I have land sickness. 

 

I feel like I am still moving even with the earth under my feet.  I suffer from vertigo and if I get up to fast then I have a tendency to walk into walls.  Oh, who am I kidding...I sometimes walk into walls anyway.  Think...toddlers learning to walk and how cute it is when their bodies get a little ahead of their legs.  Yea, not so cute when you are a grown woman.  Just kinda looks like I am drunk.

Anyway, I have decided I have moving sickness.  After all the prepping the old house, selling the old house, buying a new house, settling into the new house, getting the kids involved in things so that their transition is easier, and trying to grasp some kind of new normal, I am off the boat, but I feel like it is still rocking.  I am the ONLY one still feeling this way.  Levi is great and enjoying his new commute, the kids are great and making friends in their new schools and activities, and I am running into walls. 

It's kind of like when you are dealing with some sort of emergency situation and you are a rock during the actual emergency and then fall apart afterwards.  I had to take an ambulance ride with my daughter a couple of years ago...scariest thing ever!  But I held it together through the ride, the exam and the discharge instructions...I did awesome right up until the doctor patted me on the shoulder and said, "You did good, mama."  And then I lost it.  Thankfully after he closed the door, but I looked like a crazy lunatic walking out to my car holding my daughter and crying the ugly cry. 

 

I was trying to figure out why I am having such a hard time adjusting when it dawned on me that it was because I really just started.  I have been spending this whole time focused on "adjusting" or helping others adjust that I haven't done so myself yet.  I am getting there and this week has been blessedly NORMAL!!  But in stressful situations my control monster comes out.  I try to control every little situation and it spills over onto the people in my life.  So basically, I am driving my family crazy.  My ten year old's hair was sticking up this morning and I was next to the kitchen sink.  I reached over got some water on my hands and started mauling the poor child to his great consternation.  "Mom, I can fix my own hair."  "Oh yeah, go fix it." 

I need to CHILL, as my boys like to call it.  So I popped a few songs on a playlist for my iPhone and am taking it easy today...well as easy as it can be with a three year old and household chores.  It's nice that the air has cooled... a few degrees anyway.  I don't start sweating as soon as I walk out the door, anyway.  I feel a nice long walk in my near future.  So here is some music to chill by, one that always makes me smile (partly because I wonder what kind of grass is growing under Tom Petty's feet):

...hope you enjoy your day me hearty...I mean landlubber.