We are coming to an end of sorts and a beginning of sorts...it was the best of times, it was the worst of times...hahaha...anyway, too much caffeine today. We have a bottle of champagne in the fridge and Levi keeps wanting to open it and celebrate the sale and purchase of our new home. The thing is we have not officially sold the old home or purchased the new one. And I just can't let him open the bottle of champagne yet.
I have not heard any fat ladies.
I love reading stories of mountain climbers...in particular stories of Mt. Everest. I am amazed, encouraged, and awed at the determination, dedication, and sometimes huge risks that mountain climbers exhibit just to reach the top of a mountain. Although I love to hike, I will not be the huge mountain climbing sort. I have lived at sea level all of my life. I get a headache in tall buildings, but I love to hear the stories. Mountain climbers can sometimes experience something called "false peak" or "false summit." Basically it just means that they see what they think is the top of the mountain in the distance and when they reach that point they realize that it was not in fact the peak and they have further to go. This phenomenon can be psychologically detrimental to the climber and often causes them to give up before they reach the top. It can make them feel like a failure.
I experienced this once while climbing a large rock that is 425 feet tall on a trail that is a little more than half a mile. I realize many of you live in and around mountains and this would not be anything of note, but for me this was not truly difficult, but very exciting. It required only the occasional use of hands and no equipment was necessary. Considering the tallest things around here are freeway interchanges and skyscrapers, it was fun and a new experience. It is very discouraging to say the least to think you are almost to the top and then realize that you have more to go. I would rather have gotten to the top by surprise.
I can't open the champagne because I fear that that "peak" is not truly
the "peak." I worry that if we celebrate and start to get excited that something will happen and we won't be truly done with the process. This is unusual for me as I am a glass half full kind of person most of the time. I just don't want to be let down, but I wonder if I am letting my husband down.
Is my fear interfering with my happiness and excitement or am I just being cautious?
Am I protecting Levi from disappointment or dampening his excitement?
How can I protect my feelings and share in this excitement with him?
Shouldn't I just be excited and have faith that him and I can push past any false summits together?
Aren't false summits there to teach us something?
How can I get past the fear to enjoy the journey?
Should we just open the damn champagne already and celebrate the trail ahead or is it a bit premature?
Pop that cork and join me in a glass of the bubbly. Different reasons but the risks have been taken and we are already further on the journey than we were yesterday. Remember yesterday, live for today and look forward to tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteI say drink the bubbly..remember the past good times, and toast to the future ones!
ReplyDeletehugs abby
Men and their premature celebrations!
ReplyDeleteBea, you can celebrate that you are in an exciting place where you are working on selling your house and buying another. That is a big place to be in and of itself, right in this moment. Celebrate THIS big moment for exactly what it is - being in the process of selling your house and buying new one.
ReplyDeleteYou *have* a house to sell, and can try to sell it. You *found* a house you want to buy, and are trying to buy it. That's awesome, whether you do both, either, or neither one. You also have a man you love, who loves you, to celebrate with. That last thing is enough of a reason to celebrate. ;-)
You can celebrate any/all future moments in their own time with another new bottle of champagne. Don't be afraid to celebrate the "Now" that is good. You won't jinx it - it already is what it is, and your now is good! Drink up!
Irishey
Hi Bea,
ReplyDeleteI agree, pop that cork. I think you are right ... you are being cautious and trying to protect Levi from any disappointment as well. Share in his excitement and toast to the future. If there are any false summits in your path, you will push past them together.
Hugs,
Roz
Hi Bea, :)
ReplyDeleteI agree with the girls here! As Irishey has said, go for that champagne and celebrate where you are now, with all things looking bright in the future. It will not jinx it at all.
I say , "cheers" and all the best to you both! Hugs sent your way!
<3 Katie
I think you have a lot to celebrate. Not just about the house...but making it through a lot of difficulty the past few months. You have had a lot of stress....and you made it though. You have been working very hard on your marriage....and to me it sounds like good things are on the horizon!
ReplyDeleteI say...."Cheers".....
Hugs.....
~Lucy
I say pop the cork, celebrate...and then when you have reached the peak buy another bottle of champagne and celebrate again!
ReplyDelete:-)
oh goodness! pop that cork already! :) lol
ReplyDeletehugs,
m.
I'm with you having just been where you are...call it cautiously optimistic. I was afraid the appraisals wouldn't come in right or the inspection would be bad or financing or whatever. Just wait is what I say...makes it that much sweeter when it does happen.
ReplyDeleteMy Mom has always taught my brother and I to celebrate life's milestones, no matter how small.
ReplyDeleteSo I say, pop that bottle open.
Also, as an aside, depending on what you believe in, by not popping the bottle you are kind of giving energy to something less positive happening. So there's that too.
Either way, congratulations in all of this, I'm sure it hasn't been easy.
~PB
I say pop the cork. If necessary, you buy another bottle and pop that cork. It's about the journey not the destination.
ReplyDeleteLove the new look.