Beautiful Mess

Our family has been very busy lately, what with the end of school, sports, graduations, birthday parties, strep throat, swim lessons, teacher gifts, doctors, dentists, orthodontists, eye check ups, work, field days, field trips, etc., etc.  But when is life not pretty busy for any of us really?  We try to fit in time to relax and just go with the flow...some months that works better than others.  May is not one of those months, but June looks better.  May was a mess!

I got a new job which I am very excited about.  It is one based on commission and will take a while to get going, but is something I can be passionate about doing.  I will continue to teach preschool part time during the school year until I can do this exclusively.  I had to really stick myself out there for this and am very happy that I stepped out of my comfort zone, but also a bit nervous.  It will be an adjustment for everyone as I work towards full time work again.  The house will probably be a mess.

I sat the other day and watched my children and husband run around the backyard and play while I sipped some wine after a particularly long, stressful day full of kid whining, mistake making, errand running, dog puking exhaustingness (I know that isn't a word, but it should be!).  As the sun set, I kept laughing at stuff the kids would say or things my husband would do and thought, "They are such a mess...my beautiful mess."  (Just to clarify for you non-Southern folk...mess in this context is a term of endearment, not an insult.)

Levi and I have had some fun times lately despite our busyness.  He continues to find me attractive even when at times this month I have been more of a hot mess.  We have good days and bad as far as closeness goes, but I know this will always be part of the ebb and flow of any relationship.  Life is messy and I am still learning that I can't control that...I can't change that...and am hoping to embrace it.

With all this mess this past month, I heard this song and just thought it fit.  The video is strange, but I love the lyrics and the folk/indie sound.  Isn't this what sharing your life with someone is all about?...we share the each other's mess.

Talking like we used to do

It was always me and you

Shaping up and shipping out

Check me in and check me out

Do you like walking in the rain?

When you think of love, do you think of pain?

You can tell me what you see

I will choose what I believe

Hold on, darling

This body is yours,

This body is yours and mine

Well hold on, my darling

This mess was yours,

Now your mess is mine

Your mess is mine

See you in the marketplace

Walking 'round at 8am

Got 2 hours before my flight

Luck be on my side tonight

You're the reason that I feel so strong

The reason that I'm hanging on

You know you gave me all the time

Oh, did I give enough of mine?

Hold on, darling

This body is yours,

This body is yours and mine

Well hold on, my darling

This mess was yours,

Now your mess is mine

Bring me to your house

Tell me sorry for the mess

Hey, I don't mind

You're talking in your sleep

Out of time

Well, you still make sense to me

Your mess is mine

Your mess is mine

This body's yours and this body's mine

Your mess is mine